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I don't use this often, and I set most entries to friends-only. However, I'm not very discriminating in who I accept as a friend. Just remember that some of the older entries are from a very odd stage in my life.

I don't think I'm going to go into too much detail of this... maybe there'll be a longer post later.

DAY 05 - Your definition of love

Love isn't just one thing. Love is a class of things. It's not a feeling, but it's the little something intangible attached what to you feel for someone sometimes when you like them. Or, in some cases, the really big something.

I try to love everyone. It's hard but it's worth it and I feel like I'm constantly getting better at it. First I have to try to be patient and forgiving and for some people that's very difficult indeed. But I'm getting better at it, because it's something worth living for.

There's a very special type of love that includes all of you. And I want to describe it but I feel like I just can't right now. But, though it's not an emotion (it rocks me deeper than that, it shakes me to my core, it causes me to do all these things I don't even realize I'm doing), it's making me yearn and miss but that's okay because it does more to help me along than I can describe. Right now, though, I'm tired and I want to be in the home it makes.

Maybe I have been dreaming the past couple years. It's not going to end any time soon. I should stop trying to find something real, stop being so hard on myself. I've been through more than I give myself credit for, even if it's nothing compared to a lot of other people. It's time I stopped trying to wake up and started relaxing and enjoying it.

Mayonnaise is alright. It does have a unique taste and I can see how some people love it and some people hate it, but to me, it's just alright. If I have to eat it, I'll be fine. It definitely changes the taste of whatever it's on, but overall the taste quality is about the same.

But mayonnaise is also dreadfully bad for you. You're eating pure fat, after all.

Therefore, reasonably, I have more of a reason to avoid mayonnaise than consume it. As I explain to people, the taste/unhealthiness ratio isn't high enough to warrant having it. I can avoid it safely.

If you do something that could have negative consequences, think first about how much you're going to like it. If you've determined that you simply don't enjoy mayonnaise enough to gain a few pounds, scrape it off the burger. Don't allow waste to set in for its own sake.